the truth

ive been through a lot this summer. its deffinetly not the amazinggg event everyone made it up to be. people changed and grew apart and the two people i thought would always be there for me grew together and dont seem to have time for me anymore. it hurts. &then the one person i thought would be my best friend for ever just because we get eachother doesnt even care. ive seen him 3 times this summer. &i finally let someone into my life as more than a friend i was happy no one was bugging me about it and i was in love for the first time. i actually knew it. but of course that ends in him cheating on me. ive realized i just need to stop. i cant trust people anymore and never should have even given him the chance. im going back to how i use to be. just being who i am without trusting anyone because ive learned the only person you can trust is yourself.


id rather feel nothing than feel everything.

summer 2010 ?

ridiculous

sooo here we go its been 3 years and once again im number 2, sorry i cant take you out to all the college parties or that i dont drink and smoke every weekend. i hangout with my friendds my age and when i need my "bestfriend" most, youre not there, i went out with my real friends every night because they were they for me and knew what i needed. honestly you are ridiculous ! if you want to waste your high school life by acting like your 20 for 4 years go for it, but im gonna be 17 for as long as i can and im gonna be with my friends that understand that, go and waste your life with your boyfriend that has already wasted his. dont expect me to be here next time, i no longer have a reason to have your back since you never have mine.

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i dont get people, they say they want to be friends with YOU yet they judge you by the people you hangout with. you said you want to b friends with ME not those girls i sit with at lunch or those guys i talk to....so why do you care ?? i have more than one friend so if you dont like them then suck it up, you walking around creating these situations for me that make me choose are soooo not fair. i dont judge you by who you hangout with do i ? we all have different people that we surround ourselves with and your one of my friends and so are the other people, so dont risk a friendship over other people i do my hardest to please everyone but the looks i get from you after i have been talking to her are like i was just sprayed with a SKUNK, and to be honest thaats how people get pushed away, so do what you want this is my life and they way i feell

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